Finding Community

This is a short post that does not really have a lesson.

We are always being told about the importance of having community, a Christian community and I do see the importance. A family that you can rely on when you need help. A family that gives godly counsel. A family that cares.

However, not a lot of people can boast of having a Christian community that actually does all those things. Provided that we are humans and we are flawed, a lot of us fail to live up to the expectation of how members of God's family should behave. This is not a post about that though, already did it here.

I'm here to rant about my struggles in finding a community. I have been a member of many Christian groups and I joined a number of them to find community but that didn't work out. I recall specifically that in one of the groups, a person (who I assume was a leader) basically told the members of the group that the group is not for friendships and if you joined for that reason, you should leave. I left the group.

I've found great communities but those didn't last long. Like CLASFON in bar 1 of law school which ended after bar 1. In my current church, there seems to be some community that I am left out of. I'm pretty sure that being a bit reserved has contributed to this. I tried to talk to people but I just despise small talk. What's the point of having small talk with people when it's leading nowhere?

I have tried to create a community with the people I call friends but my efforts have been frustrated for many reasons. For one, my friends aren't each others' friends. Secondly and most importantly, they don't have my time and I have decided to remove any possibility of community with them to avoid any disappointment.

I'm not sure how to resolve this problem. I've been praying to find a community that aligns with everything I want. I've also made resolutions to be more friendly and outgoing. Nothing has happened yet.

Like I mentioned earlier, there's no lesson from this post. Or maybe the lesson is that if you have a great Christian community, treasure them with all your heart because they are hard to come by. I believe I'll meet my people, I'll find my community. Until then though, I'm perfectly fine with Jesus being all that I have (on some days though, Jesus be a helper).

Thanks for reading. I love you and God loves you more.